March 3, 2021
Hey everyone, I've had a really negative thought recently. Not of the gruesome sort, just of the depressing kind. I know that it's just my OCD lying to me, making me doubt and question everything in my life, but there is one question that's been going around in my head for some time. I always wonder, as someone with contamination OCD, whether I will ever get married and have kids. The thought of living with another person, sharing a bed and everything, is a lot for me to accept. I would either have to completely come clean (no pun intended!) to my significant other or hide it completely. I'm not against communication. I'm so for it. But the only reason I would consider hiding it, well at least trying to, is because I don't think it's fair to transfer my obsessions and compulsions onto other people. I don't want those closest to me to be uncomfortable around me or to act like they have to walk on egg shells because they are afraid of triggering me. I h...